Recuperations...

Some patching up to do. Some stuff cannot be said in a single post (the previous post). Block Tests are nearly over (Note: NEARLY and not ALREADY. Why am I still here? Gosh. I am sinking deeper into quicksand.)

My desperate attempts at saving myself from myself have proven futile. The opportunity presented to me turned out to be wisps of smoke. An illusion. And I've recently discovered that all my efforts to change the cold surroundings have been in vain. Yet, I am no longer afraid. Perhaps the blows have come too often to have formed calluses. At least I have a calmer mind now. Inner peace.

I've just realised my wild emotional rides when viewing this blog. Ahh... How I long to savour happiness again... I tried squeezing my surroundings for the last vestiges of happiness, but the well runs dry... Or perhaps happiness comes from within?