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I stumbled upon some music theory website today. Having no musical background whatsoever and yet being curious at the same time, I decided to check it out.

... music theory turned out to be way more abstract than even F Maths. My mouth is foaming now... Oh well.

On a side note, I'm not really sure what is happening to my family now... The storm still lingers ominously. Running out of ideas...

Normalcy

I really hope normal life can resume from now on. The storm has calmed down quite a little, but not before taking its toll. My emotions are wrecked and my schoolwork is in a mess. Deep down, it still hurts. When the fairy tale ends so abruptly...

Sunder

I'll be taking some time off... Some serious personal issues have cropped up and I hope I'll have the courage and maturity to deal with them...

Why, must I be only seventeen to be facing such adult issues? My only pillar of hope has collapsed upon me... Crying. What if I'm forced to deal with matters beyond the scope of a seventeen-year-old? I cannot even begin to comprehend it. When someone still needs support and completeness, something comes up and destroys the greatest fairy tale of them all. What if he tells her he'll be leaving her? I cannot be torn apart or disintegrated. Everything around me is whirling now, crumbling.

Even as I write this, I am clinging to any remaining vestiges of my sanity. I try to turn to faith. Yet who is there to answer my desperate calls if I'm a non-believer? Please save me and everything around me from sundering apart. Some things cannot be mended.

No, I'm not out of love. Yet two people very dear to me are. Thus I must have the courage to intervene. I must tell myself I have the maturity to handle this the way it should be.

Please don't leave me.

Systems

School's starting tomorrow. And I'm not at all looking forward to it. Haven't touched my F Maths, which will be tested on the FIRST LECTURE! I'm just informed that I have to arrive at 7.15 am tomorrow for some JOINED ASSEMBLY! That's so "FUN and EXCITING" isn't it? *Yawn*. I never thought the new system will affect me so much. I always thought at least *my* batch can be spared from its ill-effects. Now I am beginning to LOATHE it the more I think about it. I just hope the they will have the sensibility to switch back. Before it's too late. "To halt a horse before a cliff" is how it should be. Now it seems the horse is going down.